Kuzu no Honkai (Scum's Wish / クズの本懐)

Ecchan.

Are you done with your homework?

Yes, I've done it all.

I worked hard so I could confess my feelings.

I just want to die.

Mugi never showed up that night.

After that,

I only received this simple message from him the following day.

Hey, where are you? I'm going home.

Sorry.

Seriously? Is he trying to piss me off?

Did things actually go well for him?

That's so stupid.

You're obviously being tricked.

Are you stupid?

He wants to be tricked.

All men do.

Want to go on a trip?

I do.

Episode 9

I want to treasure the most What is most precious

But even something so simple Is the one thing I can't do

"If destiny is real

Then you are the person I'm destined to be with"

Those are the words I can't say

Because I'm scared It will destroy what we have

Even when you're near, you feel so far

This feeling that comes and goes

"Give up" "Don't give up"

The petals I pick are never ending

The treasure box remains locked

Embracing the sparkling feelings

Hiding the faintly colored fragments In my sighs

If our eyes meet, please don't look away

See through this lie I've locked away

I don't know how much more I can take

So please don't say anything yet

It hurts

I love you so much it's scary

Wow, it feels really nice up here.

Karuizawa.

Is this a heartbreak trip? A grieving trip?

And for two.

No, nothing even started with one of them.

Wow, summer resorts are great.

The wind feels so nice.

I guess it's because of the fog and terrain.

Ecchan.

Come on, what's the harm?

Nobody here knows us.

We're just here by ourselves.

Ecchan can be pretty forward in situations like these.

Don't look at me like that, that's so unfair.

To be honest,

it's better when I can keep my mind busy.

I just had my heart broken, didn't I?

Hanabi.

Thanks for coming.

Anyway, that's pretty amazing having a vacation home in Karuizawa.

Oh, it's not ours.

It's a relative's.

Don't expect much, it's old.

Wow, this is amazing!

I'm glad you like it.

There's nobody else here.

We get to be alone.

So, welcome!

Welcome.

Yikes, this is awkward.

Is the food good?

Yes, it tastes great.

Do you like it, Sanae?

Yeah, it's good

because you made it, Atsuya.

Ecchan's cousin looks like her from the side.

Hanabi, why don't you take a bath first?

What, are you sure? Shouldn't I help with the dishes?

It's fine, you're tired, aren't you?

Okay, then.

It feels so nice,

but I feel a little self-conscious.

The view is nice, though.

You're too close.

Am I?

The kitchen's pretty small here, isn't it?

Are you mad?

Of course I'm mad.

How mad?

Guess.

-You're still pretty when you're mad. -Just shut up and wash.

I didn't bring any clothes!

That's not my problem. If you don't want to get wet, back off!

I'll kill you!

Great, now I'm soaked.

That's not my problem!

Things are heating up.

I don't forgive you.

I'm never forgiving you.

How did you even know that we were coming here?

I called your house.

We were going to get to be alone.

It was my chance!

Hanabi got her heart broken, and even broke up with that guy!

Were you planning on making her yours on this trip?

That's right! And you've ruined it!

No.

You know that she will never fall in love with you.

You just wanted one last memory together.

Shut up!

You're the one being louder than me.

Is it really that wrong

to want things to end cleanly?

I wanted you to end things cleanly.

But I don't think you're strong enough.

Shut up!

You'd better not come in our room tonight!

Keep it down.

Why?

What's the problem?

What do others know about me?

Your body is hot, Hanabi.

Because I took a bath.

You smell nice.

I haven't shown anyone.

I didn't even want them to know.

Are we doing it tonight?

Yes, of course.

But we're not alone.

Yeah, he's in the next room.

So try to keep your voice down.

Even after touching her,

even after falling in love,

I've chosen to be alone.

What's so wrong

with choosing my own ending?

I can't go back to sleep.

Hanabi...

A notebook.

Is it Ecchan's?

It's a bullet train ticket to Karuizawa.

Did she...?

You're still shaking.

I know it's not much, but...

I'd become so fragile that a single touch could break me.

Even so,

my heart continued to breathe.

You're up early.

You too.

Do you want to take a walk?

I don't see lakes that often.

Me either.

Hey.

Who do you like?

Where'd that come from?

Just answer me.

Well...

I don't know right now.

Maybe I should've been clearer.

At least decide how you feel about Sanae.

I don't care about the rest.

Sanae isn't someone you should use as a replacement.

You have to decide during this trip.

That's right.

I should

already know that by now.

Wow, this is awesome!

I know how much you love clothes.

I bought so much!

We got everything we wanted.

I think I used up all the money I earned over the summer.

It's been a while since I've seen Ecchan look this happy.

The shade is nice.

Yeah.

Watch where you throw it.

Sorry, sorry.

I know.

Sanae isn't someone you should use as a replacement.

I already know that.

I'm feeling possessive now? This isn't love.

Guilt.

It's because I'm lonely. I used her.

A misunderstanding. I just feel it now.

Being with her won't change anything.

No.

This feeling...

Please, at least for now...