Kuzu no Honkai (Scum's Wish / クズの本懐)

Come on.

Say it.

Call me "Teacher."

"Teacher."

I'm sure,

she just felt like it today.

Not letting me call her by her name.

Just role-playing with me.

I know.

I already know it, but...

Hey.

What does it feel like?

It feels really good.

I can tell.

I can tell because you're really hot.

You are really "Teacher!"

Damn it.

Damn it!

FRAGILE AND EMPTY

I want to treasure the most What is most precious

But even something so simple Is the one thing I can't do

"If destiny is real

Then you are the person I'm destined to be with"

Those are the words I can't say

Because I'm scared It will destroy what we have

Even when you're near, you feel so far

This feeling that comes and goes

"Give up" "Don't give up"

The petals I pick are never ending

The treasure box remains locked

Embracing the sparkling feelings

Hiding the faintly colored fragments In my sighs

If our eyes meet, please don't look away

See through this lie I've locked away

I don't know how much more I can take

So please don't say anything yet

It hurts

I love you so much it's scary

My first time was like a dream.

I was in high school. Not too early, not too late.

And it was with a boy two years older who everybody admired.

Of course, it wasn't his first time.

And he would guide me.

I just needed to play like everything was new.

Well, not that I needed to since it actually was my first time.

The more I did that, the more he enjoyed it.

And I would be loved.

All while enjoying my own worth.

Something any girl would long for.

Something they want but can never have.

I want to take all of their jealousy.

And pile it all up so I can line them up, look at them, play with them, stomp on them.

And use them on a whim.

Why?

Because that's all I know about myself.

Alarm

I've never had an adolescence like that.

Ms. Akane?

Am I boring?

What?

No, not at all.

Oh, I don't think I've ever been self-deprecating in front of someone before.

You're not like any...

Gross. Now it sounds like I was whining.

Your extreme selfishness turns me on.

Or maybe how you make people think that everything is calculated.

I like that about you. It's fascinating.

That's what you like?

You're not mad?

Why would I be mad?

Did you say something that should upset me?

No.

He thinks that I've accepted it.

He's imagining that he's been accepted.

So naive.

You think I'd...

Ms. Akane...

Would you like to go somewhere together next week?

Wherever you want to go.

Damn kid.

Oh, sorry.

That's Mr. Kanai's day.

I'll shatter your world.

I'm so kind.

I see.

Even if you don't want to know, you can't help it because we're similar.

Like how there's a part of me that can never change.

Or the timing that I pull away.

It's so sad.

Why?

Why do you keep repeating the same actions?

Because...

This is all I know.

It's the only way I know how to keep myself standing.

Keep myself standing today and in the future.

I think I'm going to lose it.

It's the first time Ms. Akane has initiated it.

Thinking about the meaning of a kiss?

What is this, J-Pop?

Am I a girl?

What, he cheated on you again?

Just dump him already.

Oh, but...

I still love him.

And guys can do that without being in love or anything.

So I'm sure he doesn't really love the other girl.

That's so naive.

But,

since I still love him, it still feels good.

Too much information.

That's right.

Feelings take a back seat to the male sex drive.

Even I thought that.

Student Counseling

What are you doing here?

Mugi.

I want to know.

Tell me, Teacher.

That's Mr. Kanai's day.

Please don't go tomorrow.

I thought you were more understanding.

Was that my mistake?

Why?

Are you jealous?

Did you imagine what it was like?

How was it?

God, her attitude is so irritating.

Of course, I didn't like it.

You know that.

What do you want me to say?

Actually, I can't believe she hasn't been stabbed at some point.

Damn it.

She's so annoying!

Are you mad?

You're still handsome when you're mad.

I--

I am mad.

And?

Do you hate me now?

I see.

I get it now.

I figured it out.

The reason why I'll never be a match for her.

Turns out, I'm scared.

I don't want to be hated by someone I love.

Please don't go tomorrow.

What if I told you that I hate you now?

Really?

I like you.

She doesn't fall for anyone.

Has no attachment to the affection she gets.

She doesn't turn anyone away, but does not chase after those who leave.

Isn't that really lonely?

I love her so much.

Did I really think someone like that would look at me at all?

I'm so stupid.

So stupid, and foolish

and hopeless.

Uh, good morning.

Yes, good morning.

But it's already past noon.

Oh, you're right.

Now.

Today is Mr. Kanai's day, but...

Do you like aquariums?

Yes, oh, no...

I thought you might like them.

You don't have to do that.

We can go wherever you want.

I'm sorry.

We've continued to go on dates.

How many has it been now?

I don't really remember.

Mr. Kanai,

today is Saturday, isn't it?

Yes, that's right.

I am going to go see the penguins.

Okay.

I don't understand. Why haven't we gone back to a motel?

Well, I guess there have been other guys like him.

Guys who obviously want to sleep with me, but don't make a move.

But this is different.

Penguins are...

We've already slept together once, haven't we?

And it basically felt like I instigated it that time.

What is this? Hold on.

Isn't this weird?

Weird reason number one:

He slept with me once, but doesn't want it again. That's weird.

Why are penguins so cute?

Weird reason number two: