The Blackout

How do you answer the question?

As you look at your life, are you satisfied...

with what and where you are in your life?

What do you want to be different?

I want to be free of my past. I want to--

What comes to your mind? What are your options?

That's the problem. What do I do?

I can't get on with my life until I can solve my past, then I can move on.

You have these nagging thoughts that you did something terrible?

Has anybody ever supported those thoughts?

-So this is all in your mind? - Yes.

Matty, what's up?

What's up, you rat bastard?

Where you goin'?

Lend me some money, man!

How ya doin', man?

I know you got it. Not that!

Have a Kiss!

There he is, folks.

The six-million-dollar movie man. I read it in Hollywood Reporter. It's true.

I'm bored, Annie. Tell us a joke.

You understand if I speak in French?

We understand.

- In French. - In French, you understand?

- In French. - In French, you understand?

Yes, in French.

Come on. I like that. Come on. For real.

Miami Beach.

I hate this guy.

Welcome home, Matty.

Yeah, and just when you thought it was safe to go into the water.

Hey, lover boy. What about your friends?

Jesus Christ.

They act like they haven't seen each other.

- I missed you. - Yeah? I missed you too, baby.

- It's impossible. - Why?

Why is it impossible for me to miss you?

Because I heard you've been a bad dude.

You heard I was a what? A bad dude?

It's not funny.

I got mine.

We're going upstairs. Be jealous, huh?

Hey, hey, hey. Come on. Don't show off.

What are you guys staring at, huh?

- We saw you in the magazine. - You're everywhere.

- Check it out. - You are everywhere.

- That's not me. That's my brother. - Your face is in every magazine.

Who's that girl?

- That's you with long hair. - That's my mother.

Madonna was here. She was looking for you. I swear to God.

She's finished with the basketball player. She said, ''That Matty--

He's got a big--'' You know.

- The biggest. - I swear to God.

- She knows. - She goes, ''Where's Matty?''

Right? Right? She was here a little while ago.

Annie, tell him. Annie was gonna kick her ass.

Yeah, Matty, yeah.

- Matty, what about your friends? - You got shades on and everything.

- Hey. - He hasn't got time to talk.

You're not a fag, okay. Come on. Talk to us.

We're rollin', Matty.

Come on. Do your thing.

- Come on, Romeo. - Gonna be around more than a day?

I got you something.

Thank you.

Come on. Show us somethin'.

Now that's a kiss. That's a real kiss. Yeah.

Watch and learn.

Hey. Leave her alone.

Like this. I can look like him.

Let me sleep.

Tell me this is--

Tell me this is to our future together.

Okay.

To your future together.

No, to our future together. To our future together.

To our future together.

That's right.

Drink it.

Why do you ask me now? Why not before?

Because I was stupid.

I didn't know what I wanted.

Why did you ask me?

I know what I want now.

I want you. I want us.

I want us together.

I want this baby. I want this baby.

Motherfuck it I'll get straight to the point

You don't dig what I'm sayin' Then fuck you

'Cause sellin'drugs the only job that a nigger got

Sellin' 'caine to the niggers in the parkin'lot

Some niggers live Some niggers gotta get dropped

You say damn, my man You cannot understand

How could you be so cold to the brotherman

Don't come around here teachin'and preachin', my nigger

Because a nigger like me you ain't reachin', my nigger

'Cause all I care about is sellin'my lleyo

I'm makin'money like a nigger make mayo

I toke weed sippin'on my Olde E

And all the crackheads all want my wee-wee

I'm rollin'hard in my ragtop Volvo

9 1 1 on my ass so I won't know

You can't understand where a brother comin'from

That's why the young black men always on the run

All right.

Keep 'em happy. Keep 'em happy.

You don't know me. Yeah. I know you. I know you!

Come on. Let's go. I know you. I know you!

Cut! Cut!

Cut it! Cut it! Cut it!

All right. All right.

There are some times at Mickey Ray's, man, when you have to be--

Silence! Silent.

'Cause we're shootin' some serious shit here too, man.

We're makin' Nana. Almost finished with Nana Miami.

But since film was too expensive for us...

and we video artists, as we like to call ourselves...

are gonna regenerate the world and pay for our own film videos.

You know what I mean?

Vidiots that we are!

Freaks of the light! Freaks of the light!

Freaks that record our own image.

Freaks that record our own image, man.

Whoa! All right. All right!

You know, and that green card, huh?

That green card gets you into the back room. That red card get you in here.

You sign your waivers at the door.

That blue card gives you access to the editing and to all the other rooms.

We got four live venues goin' at all times here, brother.

- Tell us about the gold card! - The gold card! Well, man!

The gold card gets you in bed. You're in the picture, brother.

You're in the picture, or sister, however it comes down.

Gold carder!

Music!

I understand what it is, but do you understand what it is?

That's all I'm trying to point out.

I understand, but do you understand?

Isn't that fuckin' simple? Isn't that fuckin' simple or what?

Am I going nuts here? So, anyway, in order--

Can we just-- Forget that. Forget that. It's over.

It doesn't matter what you think!

I know I fucked up! I'm saying I fucked up!

How could I listen to you tell me I didn't fuck up? I fucked up! All right?

- What do you want to do about it? - How the fuck do I know?

- You think I know? - That's absurd.

- Hey! - How you doin', man?

- How'd the film go? - Which one?

Flavor-of-the-month guy, huh?

- All right. - Me? Flavor-of-the-month guy?

- That's right. - You fucker you.

My star. This is my star.

You better fuckin'-- Get the fuck outta here with that!

Wait. We're makin' a movie, man.

We're makin' a movie here. Keep me out of it, will ya?

- I'm makin' a movie. - Get the fuck outta here.

-He's been following me since I came in! -He's filming her, man.

He's filming her. We're making a movie.

You want to be in the movie, great. Otherwise, stay away from us.

You gotta stay away from us. And you can't be the star of the movie either.

- Why? - You gotta do everything I tell you.

Because somebody else is the star.

I am the star.

The truth, brother.

Godard says 2 4 frames a minute. Or is it a second?

- It's a second, isn't it? - Twenty-four frames a second.

- You sure? - Yeah.

- What is she doing? - It's the future is what it is.

She's starring in my movie, man.

It's video, man.

- Yeah, video. - Video is the future.

Video is the future.

The star, baby. You could costar with her.

Got a part for you in this picture.

Wanna sign?

You're not gonna be able to see her otherwise.

Really.

They are happy. Everybody's happy.

This is good for you.

Matty is happy. Everybody is happy.

You think I love you?

I know you love me.

- You know? - I know you love me.

I know you love me when I touch you like this.

Everybody in the world can do that.

No one does it like me.

Yes, that. Everybody can do that like you.

Yes.

Oh, yes.

I do that alone, and I feel the same thing.

I don't need that.

I love you so much.

You want somethin'?

I told you about Mickey, right?

The moment of awe.

He's telling me about the moment of--

He's called this prostitute up in the room.

And he's in a hotel.

The doorman rings him up and says...

''There's a girl here to see you.''

So he says, ''Send her up.''