Barren

Hiya, love.

Come on, I know you're well enough to

know when something's amiss.

Will you ever give us a baby?

Oh, I hope so, love.

Just have to trust in his plans.

It's all we can do.

Do you know how many babies I've seen

baptised in this church, week after week,

always hoping that one day it'll be ours?

I know. Our day will come.

What happens if it doesn't?

Hey, hey, it's enough of that...

It's enough of that talk.

You have to stay positive.

This is just pre-treatment nerves.

Yeah, maybe. Maybe not.

Hey, we'll cross that bridge when, no,

if, if we come to it. Alright?

Chin up, hey?

Right, I'll crack on.

By water and the Holy Spirit,

she is to receive gift of new life

from God, who is love.

So I guess you've not brought me out here

to admire the scenery.

I'm pregnant.

Em! Amazing! Congratulations!

Great!

Is it?

Isn't it?

Come on.

You know me.

Come on, Em! You're making amazing, Mum!

What about my career?

Hmm?

I can't have it all.

I grew up in a single parent household.

I know what that means.

Come on, Em. It's not like

you're living on the bread line.

There's childcare and

friends and family to support.

People have done it on way less.

Maybe I don't want to do it.

Maybe if...

Maybe I want to get rid of it.

Look, I'm here to

support you no matter what.

You take your time.

Don't rush into any decisions.

It's your body, your choice, yeah?

Grace.

Julia, how are you?

Oh, he's beautiful.

Thank you.

Would you like to take him?

I need to go get the Bibles anyway, so...

There you go.

Shh.

Beautiful boy.

Thanks for taking him.

Julia.

I can take him back now.

Julia.

He can't beat that

new baby smell, can you?

Till he fills his nappy.

Julia, are you OK?

Me?

Yes. Why wouldn't I be?

You just seem...

distracted.

Have you ever questioned it?

What's that?

Your faith.

Where are you?

Mummy!

Where are you?

Where are you mummy?

Did you hear that Piers is going for partner?

What?

Yeah, I think his

interview's on Wednesday.

The sly bastard.

It's business.

Are you defending him?

No, but Piers has every

right to go for partner.

The years I've put into that firm,

there shouldn't even be interviews

for fucks sake.

They've always just implied it would be

mine for the taking.

Things change.

Piers is good, but he's

not that good, come on.

Emily, come on, like that's

life for women in business.

Which rock did you just climb out from?

They know that first and foremost I'm a

career woman and I've

worked bloody hard for this.

I've got a nanny lined up

my mum can help out.

Women can do this.

Women do this all the time.

Not everyone sees it that way.

Look, babies change things.

You're right.

I've always dreamt of being a mum to a

one night stand loser.

Are you even going to

try and talk to him again?

This baby is his

responsibility too, you know?

The only responsibility that man has is

living at home with his mum and dad.

I don't know why I just didn't deal with

it when I had the chance.

There was a tosser stood outside the

clinic with a banner.

Baby murderer, it said,

wrongly spelled of course.

But it was enough to shame me into

turning round and walking home.

Don't say that.

Why not?

It's true.

Sure, I like the idea of the baby, but do

I like it more than a

meaningful career and lifestyle?

Anyway, I can't change what's done.

You know, I don't like you working at

that warehouse, don't you?

It's not right.

You should be looking after yourself.

You know that I do.

Besides, we need the

money and it's good money.

Until a gamekeeping job comes up

that's all that there is.

And I like it.

I get to sit, peace and quiet and knit,

and unravel this mess that's in my head.

I'll see you inside.

Piers, it's Emily.

Look, I need those notes.

Yeah, no, I understand that, but we've

got a deadline, remember?

No, no, it's not possible.

I'm about to give birth

any bloody day now.

I need those notes on my desk as agreed.

Piers, I'm not asking you.

I'm telling you.

And if you value your job

you'll get it done.

Julia?

Julia?

Honey?

Oh, honey, come here.

Come here.

Hey, hey, hey.

Honey, it's all right.

We could go private.

Private?

Honey, you know how much it costs.

We've been through this again and again.

We agreed.

We've got three rounds on the NHS.

We can't do a fourth.

Not financially.

Not emotionally.

You've been through enough.

We're done.

I'll do whatever it takes.

And I can even help out with the lambing

now that I'm not pregnant.

It means you wouldn't have to pay Jim.

Honey, do you think I've got

the money to just throw at this?

At you?

We'll find the money.

Honey, you're barren.

It's tough, but you have to accept that.

You can't say that.

No Ian, no, you can't say that.

You could never say that.

Okay, okay, okay.

Okay, so where does this money come from?

I don't know.

I'll get an extra job.

I'll work more hours.

We're already up to our eyes in debt.

We've got a pile of red bills in the kitchen stacked up.

There's the mortgage,

the utilities, the flaming horse!

That's hundreds in vet bills alone just

to stand in the field eating grass.