Control Freak

You're not good enough.

You're too stupid.

Too ugly.

You are worthless.

That's what she said to me, and I believed her.

Now, raise your hand if the voice in your head

has ever said any of these things to you.

Yeah.

Eight years ago, I was working at a Waffle House

and living inside my Toyota Corolla.

Glamorous, I know.

And that voice was with me every minute of every day.

Whenever I aimed for something better, she convinced me to give up.

Who is she?

She certainly isn't me.

I want to be better, I want to succeed.

That voice was a parasite inside my mind,

and I was a way-too-generous host.

She's holding your best self hostage

while the basic you goes through your basic life,

day after day, never reaching your true potential.

But all of that ends here.

I'm gonna show you how to shut her up once and for all,

and together, we are going to unlock

the best version of you the world has ever seen.

Are we ready?

You got another one.

What's up? What is it?

My mom's anniversary is this weekend.

I thought it was next month.

- You wanna do something? - Like what?

We could, you know, go pay our respects.

Go see your pops.

I wish I could. I owe the team a new draft.

I thought the last one was solid. Give yourself a break.

But it's not good enough.

- You're kidding me, right? - Yeah, I wish I was,

but China has a real hard-on for paperwork.

Can we cut this? It feels insensitive.

But they need my birth certificate?

Who do they think I am? A sleeper ISIS agent?

Right? This would never happen

- to a white cis man. - That's not what I meant.

Do you think Tony Robbins is getting his tour canceled

because he doesn't have the proper forms?

- It would never happen. - Wait, they could cancel the tour?

I mean, hypothetically, sure, but they won't.

Hey, maybe your folks have a copy.

Like, my mom still has all my kindergarten drawings.

My queen, don't stress about it.

Look, clearly, you've got a lot on your plate.

My office is gonna find a work-around.

Worst case, we cut a few days and we skip Asia for now.

What? No.

No cuts, no changes.

I'll find it.

We are all searching.

You feel the pull, an urge to go somewhere,

but it's not clear where.

You are fumbling around in the darkness,

looking for a light in the distance to guide you.

But you're looking in the wrong place.

The light you seek is inside of you.

You are the light, and you choose where to shine it.

Are you ready to unleash your inner power?

Her books opened our minds.

Her speeches opened our hearts.

And now, for the first time in seven years,

the queen of good habits is taking her life-changing lessons

around the world.

Don't miss your chance to see Valerie Nguyen

live in your city, and become unstoppable.

So?

So, I think it's a great start.

Okay.

Okay, lay it on me.

The music is a bit much,

pacing is choppy, and I don't love the script.

That "queen" line? It's cringe.

And this clip, it's ancient.

Can we shoot something new?

We can.

But this has to go out next week, right?

- And? - And if you obsess over every frame,

then we're not gonna get it out in time.

You know, you shouldn't talk to your boss like that.

You should fire me.

Oh, come on!

How are you still eating this crap?

'Cause I love the taste of crap.

At first, a good habit feels like punishment.

You're depriving yourself of something, right?

"Why can't I just have one bite of cake?

Just one drag of that cigarette?"

But it's not punishment.

It's the exact opposite.

Every time we lace up those running shoes,

open that journal,

every time we act with intention and not indulgence,

we are sending a signal to our brains.

We are telling our subconscious that we matter,

that our mind and our body are worthy of attention and care.

That is why a good habit is the ultimate act of self-love.

Hey, Queen, it's Crystal.

Look, I know you're swamped but I really need that birth certificate.

We gotta lock in the sched and I have some sponsors I'd hate to lose.

So were you able to chat with the fam, see if they kept a copy?

Look, all I know is that things are only gonna get crazier...

Yeah.

It's Valerie.

This place is just like I remember.

When you were little, I have to cut very short,

because you pick cuticles so hard, make them bleed.

We call you...

I don't remember that.

Finished. You like?

Do you have those boxes from the old house?

Why?

There's just some keepsakes I want.

Back there, if you want to check.

But your...

There's a box missing.

- Do you know where it is? - Your dad took it.

"Reggie."

That sounds... Reggie doesn't work until he's older, I don't think.

"Riley," I like. That's pretty fun.

Um... I like Ron.

For a girl, that's nice.

Or "Ronalt," with a "t."

- What about Rodrigo? - Wait. Isn't that Spanish?

Yeah, we could learn Spanish.

Don't you want, like, a beautiful Spanish man as a child?

Could play flamenco guitar for us.

Rodrigo.

Val, what's up?

Look, I know that it is taking forever

and it feels like it's not gonna happen.

It's gonna happen.

Totally.

I mean, it's not like they would cancel the tour.

I was talking about getting pregnant.

- I'm sorry. - That's okay.

- My head's all over the place and... - Yeah.

Oh, you know, I've been meaning

- to talk to you about the... - Oh, hon, you're doing it again.

- You gotta see someone about that, really. - Oh, no.

It's just an itch, okay?

It's just an itch.

You've had this for 11 months,

and you're calling me now?

Sorry, Doc, work's been crazy.

I've been using a corticosteroid, but it's not working.

Could you prescribe me a betamethasone?

Valerie, I need to examine you in person first.

I just need stronger medicine.

It's not that simple.

Chronic pruritus is tricky to diagnose.

It could be psoriasis, rosacea.

It could have nothing to do with your body at all.

What do you mean?

I mean, you should consider additional approaches to diagnosis.

I'm not a therapist, but given your family history,

this might have more to do with the psychological components.

Maybe it's something hereditary?

You look tired.

I hope you're not working too hard.

No rest for the wicked.

- How's Robin? - Robbie.

He's good.

We got married last year.

Oh.

Children?

Uh, not yet, but we're trying.

Hm.

It's not what you think.

Though I can't blame you for thinking it.

And I don't blame you for anything, Vy.

So, this is it.

This is your life now.

It's a strange concept, giving up everything one holds dear.

I don't expect you to understand.

You always loved your nice things.

Oh, but I do understand. That's why I'm here.

You took some "Earthly attachments" from the salon.

I came to get them back.

Lighten your cosmic load.

And I thought you came to honor your mother.

Just give me the boxes and I'll be out of your hair.

Your figurative hair.

What boxes, Vy?

- You're looking at everything I own. - I don't have time for your games, Ba.

- I need... - You don't need anything!

All your wealth and fame, did it make you happy?

Or does it weigh you down,

as you struggle to hold onto it

and keep it from slipping through your fingers?

You keep looking at that.

What is it?

- Sanshi. - Okay.

And why is it the only thing you have hung up in here?