13 Reasons Why

I thought a long, long time about what to say today.

How to pay tribute, but also tell the truth.

It truly hurts me to think that my actions have caused anyone emotional distress.

When I think of the pain that I may have caused, I-I just...

Well, I feel awful. Every day, I wish that I could go back in time.

I was used to a certain culture of partying and hookups,

and many of us never questioned it, but it is time to question it.

And I know that I need to be the one to set an example.

I'm... I'm trying every day to be a better man,

to be the man that my parents raised me to be.

And to be a positive influence at Liberty High.

It is my sincerest hope that you will allow me to do so.

Thank you, sir.

-Does the county accept the allocution? -We do, Your Honor.

Prior to sentencing,

the victim would like to exercise her right to make her own statement.

Proceed.

I have to admit,

when I was asked to speak today, I didn't want to.

To stand up in front of all these people.

But it's what Hannah deserves.

Your Honor, thank you for this opportunity to address the court.

If it's all right, for the first part of my statement,

I'd like to address the defendant directly.

- Go right ahead. - Why not?

The first weekend in September, my parents were out of town

and my little brothers were at their grandparents'.

I wanted to host a party

like I thought a popular cheerleader should.

My boyfriend was there.

Your friend Justin.

We had been drinking.

We decided to go up to my room.

I remember making out with him.

And then I...

And then I started to fall asleep or... or pass out.

I just... I remember thinking

that I just needed to close my eyes for a few minutes.

Then he...

Then he walked out of the room.

And then I remember waking up to you pulling off my underwear.

I remember feeling you push yourself inside of me.

I may not remember all of the details,

but I will never forget the sheer terror

of feeling your weight on top of me,

of not being able to breathe.

When I opened my eyes, I was alone in the hot tub with him,

and there was...

The way he looked at me, there was something in his eyes.

And I was afraid.

I wanted to slow down, but he told me not to be a tease.

And he pushed me down on the couch

and said he was glad I had waited for him.

And then he pulled off my jeans and then my underwear.

And he said that if I showed my body better,

people wouldn't think I was a lesbian.

He used a different word.

And then he grabbed me on the inside of my thigh.

At that moment, we were left alone, and he picked me up.

He just picked me up and carried me behind the fence.

And he lay down on top of me and started to take my pants off.

I fought and I fought,

but he was 18 and I was 12.

I found out later this guard had a reputation.

When he got up from my bed and left,

my roommate rolled over and told me it happened to most of the girls.

I was a second-year associate.

He invited me to a strategy meeting in his hotel room.

He answered the door in his bathrobe.

I spent the evening insisting we work on the case.

At the end of that year, I was let go.

I had been babysitting for this family for, I guess, two years.

He was my youth pastor.

My second cousin.

Your Honor, when we leave this courtroom,

Bryce Walker gets to leave

convinced that he chose the wrong girl to have sex with.

I get to leave constantly looking over my shoulder

for monsters dressed up as the popular kid,

constantly on edge and assuming the worst in every boy.

The sentence you decide today can tell Bryce Walker what he did was wrong.

It can say that to every boy, every man who behaves like he does.

And it can say to victims like me that our story matters.

Thank you.

Prosecution has put forth a sentencing recommendation.

Does the defense have anything to contribute?

Your Honor, this is a terribly unfortunate event.

And two young lives have been changed forever.

Bryce has lost all his scholarship offers.

The school district has cancelled

what might well have been a championship season.

There is regret on all sides.

We urge the court to let these two young people start rebuilding

and return to their lives.

This is a tragedy all around.

As a judge, it's my role to look at both sides.

And California law requires every judge to consider rehabilitation

and probation for first-time offenders.

I'd like to see these two young people

look hard at their lives and their choices.

But I don't want to do any further damage.

Mr. Walker...

I expect you to walk the straight and narrow.

I'm sentencing you to three months probation. So ordered.

Your Honor, three months probation?

That's all.

I'm angry. I'm sad.

And I still have no idea how what happened happened.

Talk to me about the sex doll that was found at Ms. Davis' home.

Or the dead rat that was inside Mr. Dempsey's locker.

The vandalism to Mr. Padilla's car.

This is bullshit.

What about the shooting target you sent my son?

I didn't do any of that.

We have several kids who say he intimidated witnesses,

engaged in felony vandalism.

Everyone's saying all kinds of shit, but it's not true.

Where's the gun?

I never touched a gun in my life.

Your Honor, Bryce Walker was released on bail within hours of his arrest,

and Justin has been stranded in juvenile detention for almost a month.

I'm aware of the timeline.

The related case is complete as of today.

Justin's plea is in, the paperwork is done.

Understood, Counselor, but as a minor, he has to be released into custody.

We have been searching for Amber Foley for weeks, Your Honor.

-She's nowhere to be found. -Keep looking. Until then, he's remanded.

Bailiff?

Hang on, Justin. We're working on it.

I know. Thank you.

We're still learning all the ways we've been changed.

All the things we've lost.

I'm so fucking sorry.

It's insane.

But somehow I still feel stronger.

Wait, where's Justin?

They'll only release him to a guardian, and the judge won't move on it.

We've filed emergency papers, but it's a 24-hour minimum.

I'll take the petition to Purdy. He owes us.

Do you wanna start on the order for the school?

Yeah.

We're asking for a court order to force the school to protect you.

To keep him away from you.

Thank you.

Mom, is your firm... I mean, are they cool with this?

I've left the firm... to work with Dennis on cases like this.

Oh, that's...

That's cool.

We're just starting to figure out how to go on with our lives.

Coach said we could leave our lockers till the end of the year.

I'm transferring. To Hillcrest.

Hillcrest? You got the grades for that?

Not exactly.

Well, private schools need fields, too, I guess.

Yeah. And uniforms and all that shit.

Speaking of which...

not all of my credits transferred, so I'll be going in as a junior.

Which means I'll see you on the field this fall.

-They're letting you play football? -That's right. See you at the dance.

Wait.

So, you and Chloe?

Yeah. Loyalty.

It's a thing, huh?

Take care of yourself, Zachy.

I say "go on" and not "move on" because in some ways...

we'll never completely move on from what happened.

Your meeting with the district psychologist went well

and the reports from your diversion program are excellent.

It was a good program.

Tell me why.

Um, well, at first, it was very difficult.

You know, the long hikes and the camping.

But after a few days,

with everything else stripped away, you're just left to your thoughts and...

you learn things.

And what did you learn?

That I can choose how I respond to things.

That even if I am feeling angry, or lonely, or whatever,

that I'm in control of my own actions.

I can't control what other people do, but I can control my response.

Do you think you're ready to come back? Do you think things will be different?

Yeah, I think so.

I'm ready.

Principal Bolan is concerned that we keep a very close eye on you.

I understand.

And your return won't be easy.

No, I know.

Hey.

Hi! Hi.

Hey.

-You're back! -I am.

-Wow. You look good. -Thanks.

Yeah, apparently, natural sunlight and physical exercise

are, like, good for us or something.

- Something. - Something.

The good news is that I'm back in time for the Spring Fling.

And I was determined to make it back in time to take you.

-Oh. -I mean, or we could just blow it off.

-We could do something else. -Yeah, no, I mean...

I'm-I'm going to the dance, uh, with Eric.