Awake

So tell me how this works.

I'm awake with my wife, and I close my eyes.

I open them.

I'm awake with my son.

And this has been happening since the accident?

So you begin working on one case here in reality,

and then, suddenly, you begin working another case

there, in your dream.

It all feels completely real to me.

You can't tell whether you're awake or asleep

at this very moment?

Well, I can assure you,

Detective Britten, this is not a dream.

That's exactly what the other shrink said.

AWAKE S01 Ep 03 - Guilty

All done.

You're always like a statue.

Never seen anyone hold so still.

One thing I've learned is patience.

See you next week.

Maybe not.

Maybe I'll get lucky.

Yeah? Who's going to give you a kidney?

They don't put prisoners on no donor lists.

A man can dream, can't he?

Yeah?

Keep dreaming.

Who do you think you are, Cooper?

My mother has to wait

three months to see a doctor,

and here you are,

sucking the taxpayers' money.

All right, let's go.

Shut the door.

Come on.

Shut it!

I got nothing to lose, Perez.

You don't want to test a man with nothing to lose.

Shut it!

Ready? I guess.

It's good you're nervous.

Nerves are good before a tournament.

But you're going to do great.

Tara.

Just watching this, uh, kid here...

the favorite for the tournament.

He's pretty good.

Good?

He's ranked like 15th in the state.

I was telling Rex, he can beat him

if he keeps him behind the baseline...

I already have a coach, Dad.

Which is why I'm thinking you really don't need to be there.

I don't need to be there.

- I want to be there. - Why?

So you can watch me lose?

- Sorry. - Yeah.

Britten.

Since when do you have a problem

with your dad watching you play?

From where?

His serve's, like, 100 miles an hour.

I mean, how am I supposed to return that?

When did this happen?

Five hours ago.

CHP just flagged him

on a traffic camera heading south on the 405.

Which means he may be in the L.A. area.

Captain's putting together a fugitive task force,

you know, to check out all his known contacts.

Some story.

Guy's 14-year-old son ODs,

he shoots the dealer and gets life in prison.

Wait.

Is this guy's name, uh...

Cooper... John Cooper?

Yeah. How'd you know that?

I made the arrest.

All you have to do is block it. Get your racquet on the ball,

- and you'll be in the point. - I'll see you there.

Something came up... work. I'm sorry.

But, uh, if you make the final, it's-it's Sunday, right?

I should be able to be there by Sunday.

That'd be great.

Don't get so broken up.

Already said you didn't have to come, so it's fine.

Call me when you get there.

Sign right here.

Jim.

It's okay.

Good to see you, Michael.

How you holding up?

Yeah, I'm... I'm good.

How's Rex?

He's playing tennis.

He's in a tournament this weekend.

I should be there, but, uh...

Bet he's good.

I remember how good Hannah was.

Kicked your ass.

So thanks for coming in on such short notice.

Well, this was my case, too.

I would have been pissed if you hadn't called me.

All right.

Let's get to the manhunt, like the old days.

So... how did Cooper pull this off?

He escaped after off-site dialysis treatment.

Used a paralytic on a guard.

Think he got it from the inside?

Grilling the staff right now.

You want to meet your predecessor?

It's the guy I was stuck with before I was stuck with you.

Jim, good to see you again, man.

Good to see you, Bird.

You know each other?

We met.

Hannah's funeral.

There, sweaty man.

You want breakfast?

I want to take a shower first.

Want to shower with me?

Save water?

For the sake of the environment.

David called.

Talked about the fundraiser tomorrow.

I thought we told him we weren't going.

Yeah, we did.

The board is hiring a new crisis counselor,

and they're going to name the position in Rex's honor.

That's nice.

Yeah.

Place was important to him, you know?

Volunteered there three times a week.

What?

I don't know, sweetie.

You sure you're up for it?

No. I just thought... it's going to be hard,

but they're doing a whole memorial program for Rex.

I feel like we should be there.

So how did you resolve this with Hannah?

Well, how do you think?

We're going to the fundraiser.

And how do you feel about that?

How do I feel?

I-I just don't want her to get hurt.

I want to protect her.

Have you considered that maybe you want

to protect something else?

Like what?

This dream of your son being alive.

This event that you're so reluctant to attend,

it's all about commemorating Rex.

But how can you expect to memorialize a son whose death

you haven't truly accepted?

So, Rex, was that really about not wanting

your dad to see you play,

or were you just giving him a hard time?

If you don't want to talk about it, that's okay, too.

He tries too hard.

He always wants

to... talk and hang out

like we're best friends or something.

This is your complaint?

I just don't want to deal with him right now.

He almost lost you.

I think you can handle a few hugs

and some awkward conversation.

He's not the problem.

I am.

What does that mean?

It means I'm a terrible person.

You're not terrible; you're a teenager. It's...

When it's just the two of us and he's

asking me about my day, making my dinner,

trying to talk about sports,

being nothing but nice to me...

I can't stop thinking that...

I wish I had her instead of him.

What kind of person

looks someone in the eye, someone who's trying so hard...

and wishes they were dead instead of someone else?

Every time he smiles at me, every time he hugs me

and says he loves me...

I'm-I'm afraid he's going to see that...

I didn't choose him.

That I want her instead.

Having those feelings doesn't make you a bad person.

There's no right way or wrong way

to feel about what's happened.

But whatever you're feeling,

you shouldn't have to keep it to yourself.

So it's good that you're telling me.

What the hell?

You okay?

I'm fine.

All right. Stay here.

Be right back.

It's not too bad.

Just a small dent.

Look, we really need to be somewhere,