Outlander

Previously...

You've returned to service.

I have resigned my commission,

but the uniform is mine to wear.

I do so for intimidation.

He's protecting me, ma'am.

It wasn't me who you were making love to.

Well, nor were you, I think,

making love to me.

No.

Claire!

How in God's name are you alive?

I hate to break up such a joyous reunion,

but your son is due home shortly.

"Son"?

Your baptismal name is James.

It was the only name I had a right to give ye.

You knew, didn't you?

There he is!

One more step, and he's a dead man.

We won't be safe until we leave the city.

The patrols willna venture that far.

May I ask what it is that you were doing

to have soldiers on your heels?

Ye're sure ye want to know?

It's likely better ye don't.

Soldiers were inspectin' folk enterin' the city.

My papers were in order,

but some ox-head didna like the look o' them, I suppose,

and wanted to search me.

And that was a problem because...

There was something upon my person

I preferred he did not discover.

I see.

I'm surprised you allowed yourself

to be cornered by them,

your instincts being what they are.

Aye, well, even foxes grow old.

Why didn't you run to the edge of town?

Why the devil did you come to my house?

My wife.

I learned that the Euterpe had sunk.

I kent Claire would be worried,

so I needed to assure her I was alive.

Come.

We'll procure some horses.

Should anyone ask later,

I forced you to come with me.

Are we understood?

We are.

Thank ye, John.

Didna have time to say it earlier,

but I'm grateful for ye,

for taking care of Claire.

Claire.

Ah.

Yes.

Gravely sorry...

William had to learn our secret.

We'll find the lad,

explain to him.

Of course.

Are ye quite well, John?

Ye look a wee bit pale.

I have had carnal knowledge of your wife.

Oh?

Why?

"Why?"

You say, "Why?"

Aye, I did.

I'd, uh...

appreciate an answer.

Well, what do you bloody mean, "Why?"

I thought you were dead.

So did your wife.

Do you have the faintest idea

what the knowledge of your death did to her?

Are ye implying the news of my death

deranged her to such an extent

that she lost her reason

and took ye to her bed by force?

Unless I've been seriously misled

regardin' yer own nature.

Or am I wrong?

You are not misled.

But you are wrong.

Ye went to her with desire?

And she let ye?

I dinna believe it.

We thought you were dead, you bloody arsehole!

Both of us!

And... and we... we...

we had too much to drink one night, and...

damn you, neither one of us was making love to the other.

We were both fucking you!

May I come in?

I wish to speak to you.

I imagine you do.

Please.

Would you like some brandy?

It's good for shock.

No.

I'm not sure what to call you...

under... under the circumstances.

Well, I would hope

that our relationship hasn't changed.

And after all, I suppose I...

I still am your stepmother,

regardless of the situation.

I suppose you knew?

Yes.

Jamie...

he told me the circumstances of your birth

some years ago.

Tell me.

Your mother...

She was reckless.

Everyone says she was reckless.

Was it...

I suppose I only want to know,

was it rape?

No.

Are you certain he did not lie to you?

Yes, I am certain.

Good.

Do you think...

Did... did he say...

Did they love each other?

I think as much as they could have.

They only had the one night.

I... I see.

I was... I was born

almost exactly nine months after my parents' marriage.

Did they deceive the man she was to marry?

Or did my mother play the whore with her groom after she wed?

I think that's a little harsh.

No. No, it's not.

Which is it?

Jamie would never deceive another man in his marriage.

My father...

...Lord John, I mean...

...he knew all along?

Yes.

And Isabel too.

But they only wanted the best for you.

The best for me.

It's the truth.

No, the truth is that everyone lied to me.

My entire life is a lie.

- William... - No.

Don't you bloody tell me any more.

God damn it!