Lioness

What the fuck?

There she is.

How you feeling?

Like I was drugged.

- Yeah. There's a reason for that.

Come over here.

What is that?

- It's a little pick-me-up. Turn around.

Give me a cheek.

How long does it take to--

What the fuck?

- Bout that long... - Jesus.

You got another one to keep my heart from exploding? Fuck!

You're welcome.

- We're loading up. How ya feelin' tiger?

- I'm awake. - Good. Let's boogie.

- I'm gonna break down her room.

I don't remember anything.

- He drugged you. GHB we think.

We talked about this last night.

I don't remember.

Do I need to get tested for STDs or something?

- No need. He didn't get that far.

How far did he get?

He didn't get nowhere.

We got there in time.

My underwear is gone.

- We got there in the nick of time.

Marine, I wouldn't bullshit you on this.

Okay. Yeah.

- Let's get the fuck out of here.

- Yeah. Don't got to ask me twice. Fuck.

Neal. What do we know?

She's still in surgery.

Kaitlyn.

Hey, Neal.

You went gray. When did that happen?

Last night.

Neal

- Alan. - Hey.

Hi, Jill.

So, she's in recovery.

The procedure went well.

There is considerable soft tissue damage,

but doesn't appear to be significant nerve damage.

The procedure is called an open reduction internal fixation

where we make an incision that allows us to insert a rod

through the center of the femur,

and we attach a plate outside to stabilize the fracture.

- How long will it take to recover?

We have to look at healing

from three different perspectives.

The bone itself, the soft tissue around the bone

and procedure site, and the incision itself,

which is fairly substantial...

- Just tell me what a year from now is like for her.

Honestly, I don't know.

She's young, so that's an advantage,

but her bones are still growing.

So, how if at all does this injury affect that growth?

Time answers that question.

Neal, can I talk to you for a second?

- She's up to speed on everything.

Okay...

So she was spotting on the table,

so it looks like her body rejected the pregnancy.

- That's a decision we don't have to make.

- When she wakes, I'll get you back to recovery.

- I want to be there when she wakes.

Okay, I'll bring you back.

Joe.

Can I have two hours?

- Yeah, but you can't have three.

Coffee?

How's Errol?

He's happiest in a downturn.

Worse the economy, the jollier the man.

That's interesting.

What's the philosophy behind that?

Be greedy when everybody's scared

and scared when everybody's greedy.

Pretty good philosophy.

- You can ask the question you really want to ask.

- Why bother, Kaitlyn? You can't answer it.

If you need her in three hours today,

then you must really need her.

- I do. Which is to say the nation does.

- Which is why I'm not asking the question.

Don't give up on her, Neal.

I wish I could.

But when she walks in a room it still takes my breath away.

- Pretty good reason for sticking around.

Yep.

Hey.

Hey...

My friends are dead.

I know, honey.

I know how that feels.

And I hate that you know it now, too. I'm so sorry.

I'm a bad mother. I know that's what you think.

I'd think it too, if I was in your shoes, I guess.

What you don't understand

is all the little moments of your life

that I've missed...

I missed those moments so other families can have them.

It's you who makes the sacrifice for the job I chose.

I always thought I was setting an example for you,

that a woman can do virtually anything...

anything she sets her mind to.

And when I do my job well, lives are saved.

Just like your father, he saves lives every day.

But he gets to come home to you every night,

I envy him that.

Your mom's a soldier.

You can look at my life and you can choose

to live yours different. I will respect that.

Fuck, I'll cheer that decision.

You can hate what I do, honey.

You can hate me.

But punishing yourself is a terrible way to show it.

I don't hate you.

I don't hate you. I just miss you.

I miss you, too.

Every day.

You're gonna be an adult soon enough,

and what you're dealing with right now,

these are adult problems.

Your whole life is going to be nothing but adult problems

soon enough.

My advice to you?

Be a girl for as long as you can.

Don't rush to be a woman.

Cause once you are, you don't ever get to be a girl again.

Did dad tell you everything?

- Depends what you mean by everything.

- Did he tell you about my...situation?

- You mean your situation of you getting pregnant?

What do I do?

God decided that.

What does that mean?

- It means you're not pregnant anymore.

How does that make you feel?

I'm not ready to be a mother.

- You know the one way to guarantee

you don't become one, right?

Look, the days of me and your father grounding you

or inventing some punishment to keep you

from being exactly where you are right now?

Those days are gone.

We lost.

And life snuck up and took a bite out of you.

And now I'm just here to...

just to give you advice.

Okay?

I've made all the mistakes you've made

and a lot more you haven't thought about yet.

You got pregnant by accident?

Yeah.

What did you do?

- My situation was a little different.

I was already married.

Your father was in medical school, I was in a team.

Timing... Timing was terrible.

Did you get an abortion?

- If I had, I wouldn't be talking to you right now.

And so, every time I look at you

I think about that coat closet

at the Double Tree Hotel that New Year's Eve.

- Ugh. Parents having sex for fun? That is so gross.

- Yeah. Right back at ya, kiddo.

- Do you know what's going to happen to my leg?

- I'm gonna leave the doctor stuff to your father.

How you feeling?

Not feeling much.

- They have a room ready for her.

We're going to take her up.

And I'll have an orderly meet you in the lobby.

- I've gotta go do something for work

and I'll be back in a few days, okay?

You won't be missing much.

Yes, I will.

- Ma! - Hi.

Hi.

- They're taking her up to a room.

Yep.

- I gotta go. I gotta take care of something.

Yeah. I'm aware.

Few days type thing, or...

If I'm lucky.

- When's the last time you were lucky?

Luck is perspective.

Only in your business.

You been good in school?

- We're learning the alphabet in Russian.

Oh, in Russian?

Ah, beh, veh, yeow, byee...

- I guess that's the Fairfax County School Board

hedging a bet. That's great, honey.

- Making spies one first grader at a time.

I love you.