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What do you see?

Focus.

Is someone waiting for change?

Where do you think they're going?

Coming from?

Hiding from?

Who are they?

Do they know?

Focus.

What do you see?

Hey!

You wanna wake up and do your job?

Hey!

Is there a problem?

Yeah, there's a problem!

I've been sitting here for like five minutes.

She's in her own little world over there.

I'm sorry about that, boss.

He's exaggerating.

- Yeah, him and the one before that.

You're all set, man, have a good night.

Wha?

Wha?

Am I gonna get my change?

Sorry.

You're all set, man, have a good night.

Got that shit in your ear again.

I told you, you gotta pay attention around here.

I was.

Yeah.

You know what, listen,

I tried to help you out, kid, really.

But you keep daydreaming.

I can't be here babysitting you all the time.

I got a lot going on.

You firing me?

- Well, what do you want me to do?

Don't lose that one, all right?

- Keep to yourself and no one will notice you.

It's been a long night

and people talk too much. - Adine Ave...

Avenue

Focus.

You're there to get home.

Where do you think they're going?

Coming from?

Hiding from?

31 minutes left on tape,

"Gas Station Commute."

If you feel yourself zoning out, rewind tape.

Look outside.

What do you see?

I am recording this tape for my daughter, Cynthia.

I've been recording these for a while now.

Not written words in a diary,

just a continuation of thoughts,

memories.

A life lived in no specific order.

I tried calling you again tonight.

I saw the light on and thought maybe

something was keeping you up.

Working nights has been good for me.

No noise,

no distractions.

It's just you and whatever else is out there in the dark.

It forces you to keep your eyes open.

You see people for who they really are

when they think no one is watching.

What are you doing, baby?

Playing.

What are you playing?

- Cinderella Bunny is fighting off

the squishy bear.

Ah, I see.

Mommy?

When's daddy coming home?

I dunno, baby.

He's working late.

He's always working.

Work, work, work, work.

Mommy?

Mommy, you're doing that thing again.

I had another episode,

but I'm not worried.

I'll try you again tomorrow.

- Okay, so aside from the episode from the other night,

you said you feel okay?

Yeah.

Yeah, I feel fine.

Mmm.

Experience any headaches, nausea?

No.

Yeah, and paranoia?

- No, no paranoia, no, no, nausea.

Headaches come and go.

How bad is it, Doc?

Well, it's hard to say.

The scans show new deterioration but your symptoms are mild.

Why don't you take a look at this?

What is this?

It's for a facility nearby.

They provide care for patients with cognitive impairment.

I-

Look,

you'll be comfortable and your family and friends

will be able to come and see you.

- You're acting like there's no hope for me.

Frankie, there's always hope,

but I think we might wanna start praying for the worst.

And honestly, if I were in your position,

this is what I'd do.

Dr. Marin, you're 11:20's here

and you have a patient waiting in room four.

Thanks so much.

Look, think about it, okay?

In the meantime, keep monitoring your symptoms

and I'll put in a refill on your prescription.

- It's been about five years since my brother took his life.

I still feel like I just got the call yesterday.

- His name was Owen, I think, or Brandon.

Ed, Nancy, Jessica.

Doesn't matter who's up there,

they all tell the same story. - I remember thinking,

"This has to be mistake-" - "This has to be a mistake."

- "You gotta have the wrong person."

- "The person I knew-" - "The person I knew-"

- "Wouldn't do that." - "Wouldn't do that."

It was like he was living

a whole other life right in front of me.

- The meetings give me something to do,

somewhere to be.

I've been going when I can.

I don't say anything, I just watch.

They don't mind if I stare.

- But that's the hardest part, I think, realizing that...

I never really knew him at all.

- But I only know the version of them

they want me to see.

That's all I got.

Thank you for sharing, Owen.

Would anyone else like to say anything about this

or anything they've experienced?

Would you like to share anything tonight?

Uh.

Only if you feel comfortable.

Sorry, I'm late.

Welcome.

Is this your first time?

No, no.

- Well, feel free to have a seat.

It's good to have you.

Thanks.

I'm sorry.

Would you like to share anything?

Um.

Probably not tonight.

Not a problem.

Would anyone else like to share?

- I called again, but Diane said you were asleep.

I wonder if she even checked to see if you were up.

Can we go out to eat tonight?

No, baby, not tonight.

I met someone tonight,

someone I've seen before.

She rushed out of her apartment

and gave me the strangest look.

And then she was gone,

just like everyone else I watch.

I think something bad might have happened to her.

I pictured her still running,

but then she showed up tonight.

Did she recognize me?

Cleaned out the back of the truck for you.

Ah, thank you.

How's Harrison sound these days?

Who?

The Ford in the garage.

It was my husband's.

He's a bit rusty.

Yeah.

Aren't we all?

We got it right before the accident.

We were planning on leaving here,

but things just,

well, they just didn't work out that way.

- I always imagined Florida for you.

That was 20 years ago.

You know, when I lost my Mike,

people would say, "Time heals."

But you know what the problem with that is?

It doesn't feel that long.

So, how can time heal if you don't even feel time passing?

Do you know what I'm saying?

Yeah.

Yeah, I think I do.

- Everyone find a partner and when you're ready,

take a few minutes to share one thing about yourself

or the loved one you've lost.

All right?

I'll be walking around if you need me.